It dawned on me....

It dawned on me that I really don't journal like I want to be, and I have a lot of things I want to write about. This really isn't for the eyes of anyone inparticular, I'm really not making this for eyes at all, actually. It's just for me. I mean, if you're reading this by all means keep reading, I guess that's why I'm making this public.....but then again, I don't expect anyone to ever read this in the first place.

It just gives me an incentive to write. i really do enjoy writing. and painting. i see writing as painting without paint or a canvas or a mess. just...with description. every painter paints with words before they paint with paint.
not ever painter writes it down.

i like to write it down.


and I am an addict. Just not on what you think.
we are all addicts for something. and that is a good thing. never think anything about you is a bad thing. its not bad.
it might be at the wrong time, it might be inconvienient, it might be useless, or just annoying. But i think that placing all those descriptions under one little word like "bad" is stupid. do we seriously have to label our vocabulary under basic four-year old adjectives? no.

nothings bad.

everythings misunderstood. but not bad, i don't believe anything is bad. except for sin. & as cliche as that may sound...well i really don't give a shit.

...i don't know where i was going with that.
but ill keep you (whoever you may be....if there is anyone which i highly doubt) posted.