Even if you need it all, my shoulder is a place your head can fall

Well spring break has gone by so much faster than i wanted. but that's life.
it's times like right now that i wonder so much about existance. the storm is shattering at my windows begging to come in and here i sit watching my family play an intense game of rummikub to get my young sister's minds off of the storm. and i am here.
wondering about so much stuff. stressing about so much stuff. at peace about so much stuff. my life is a delicate string wrapped around a tree.


i just have a lot on my mind about stuff. A LOT on my mind.
i need to get it all out. but here isn't the place. and now isn't the time.

oh sally you silly little girl. you have no reason and yet every reason.
you tried. you honestly tried.

it's not over yet.
i would pray about it. but haven't seemed to be doing that much latley.



breath like the water coming down from the sky. crying.
what a Good Friday.
Jesus i know we don't hang out as much. but i love you so much daddy. you've given me a Good Friday.

I've got a chip on my shoulder that's bigger than
The mountains you said my belief could move
Far be it from me to question your methods
But how could you save me from drowning asleep on the shore?
The devil is in my bed
I want to know what keeps him fed
The cancer in between us only quietly resists
Sometimes I wish you'd just wake up and show me
A wave of your hand and you'd calm the storm
Instead you assure me that I'm not alone here
And tell me my faith is too small and I'm closing the door
If even the wind and the waves would obey you
The rocks would grow lungs if you asked them to
Then how can a man with such righteous intentions
Be so cavalier with his shame while he's begging for more?