"Calm down, Calm down, it's alright."

how did pablo know to sing this song? i'm not a big fan of the tune, but it keeps chorusing in my head, begging me to calm down.
i'm really trying pablo, i promise.

i've just got to figure a toooonnnnnnn of crap out in the next 48 hours or so and it's eating away at me. i don't know what to do.
i'm really gunna be roughing up my knees tonight that's for sure. and tomorrow. and the next day. i don't know. i just really need to slow down, slow down. calm down calm down, it's alright.

wooosssshhh. breath, sally.
deep.
calm.
still.
deep. quiet. still. calm.

"So raise up and be calm, O Lord
Oh, be calm
Oh, be strong, oh my Goddamn be strong"
oh andy hull. you always know what to say.
i feel calm.

it's time to test what i learned this weekend.
so soon? thanks Jesus.
but i'm not worrried about that. i'm just still on backlash from a year of silence to even think that i'll get what i want to hear. but i'm reading James, which is about faith. faith that is so undying and intense that as followers of Christ we believe it can move mountains. and i've got a lot of mountains in my life right now.
do i really believe that Jesus can move them?
i want to. badly.
james says that faith without action is worthless. if i want faith in Jesus but take no action to listen or learn, it's worthless.

so tonight that's what i'll be doing. reading, and praying and listening. face down. listening. and i'm not getting up until i get some answers.