we would have gotten farther if we never really started at all

dun dun, dun dun, dun dun, dun ding don diiinnng ding.

you have to be inside of my head to understand this.
i haven't posted in a few days.
to keep you updated, i am happy as a clam. and hearing and seeing an aweful lot, and not feeling the overbearing drown and gurgle of stress.

it's nice. it's life.
i'm nice. i'm life.

i don't know what to give up. i feel like if i give up food, i will be doing it for all the wrong reasons. but i could give up my lunchtime during school and fast. i met a girl once who did that, she would go somewhere in her school during her lunch, and fast and pray and have jolly good times. where would i go in my school? theres the bathroom, but it smells bad....and people would totally know that i was skipping lunch to hide in the bathroom....

theres the library? a little distracting.
a classroom? nope. humph.
no where.

maybe i wont do that then.
mahybe ill give up facebook? to generic. and i haven't been on facebook as much so that's not really impairing me from God.
ipod? eek. i don't want to.
but that would be the one thing that does put me away from Him more and more.
but i can't possibley imaginve functioning daily without that thing.
maybe God wants to show me how i can.

i don't really want him to. cause i don't wanna give up music. it's too much a part of me. more than God? no. it's different.
i kinda like the lunch idea the more i think about it, but that's just because i'm trying to get my mind of the ipod scenario.


ill pray about it...later.....

i am totally not helping my huge homework load problem.
i have nothing deep to say.
i hope that april 20-something or may 30-something works. i'll MAKE it work heehe.
i applied for ajob at bruster's today.
i um....oh ya, i'm trying to decide what to do about painting classes in april. yey? ney?
depends.

ok that's it now.