"In a Sweater Poorly Knit"

I am leaving today in aproximetley one hour. i can't spell.

i'm excited. i wasn't, but now I am. I'm just ready to be surrounded by natural beauty and people who love me and i love them. and a God who loves me and i love Him. we just don't get to see each other that much in atlanta. but I try, i really do.

like today. i went on a three hour drive with my momma to get some hours in, and i wanted to go downtown. so we took ponce all the way down there (which really isn't that far) and we went down some awesome streets and my favorite song was blaring through the speaker and I just saw God. specifically when we drove through little 5 and my heart not only broke one thousand times for all the homeless/druggies on the street, but also rejoiced for the fact that I would one day meet them, or people like them that is.
and my soul yearned for the city.
and I saw God.

and that started to get me excited for this little outing I'm going on. to tennessee.
i will be best friends with solitude, with silence, with the wind.
and my ears will be on and my mouth will be off and my heart will be open and my mouth will be closed. and i will just BE.

no worry zone.
no stressing zone.
God I just hope we get some noise out of this. and not just me. please please please.
don't worry, He said of course we will.

since my heart is already in my throat I just wanna throw out there to the internet and whoever the hell reads this (probably only like one person, but whatever)
that I am giving it up now. Judy got to me.
this weekend is my trust weekend. i'll probabbly do something really stupid like jump off a cliff.

hopefully not though.
ok well on that happy note. i'll go pack now.
see you folk(s?) sunday.
can't say that i will miss you (whoever you may be, but certainly not my reader because i will in fact be with her) but anyways.




i wanna taste a vortex cheeseburger and feel the needles on my colar bone and hear the beats throb through my earloabs and feel the hands of the dispared squezing mine.
ugh. i wanna HAVE MY LICENSE!

ok now, for real i'm going.
um bye.