"I wanna be your fever, just to know i make you heated"

kinda scandelous.

oh well.

this is totally random, but i was thinking about johnny appleseed today.
i never think about him anymore.
it brought me back to a 7 year-old mindset.
i thought johnny appleseed was the SHIT. like, seriously. i thought he was SO cool. i wanted to do something impactful with my life like that. i pictured him really strong and burly and yet peaceful and harmonious with the anture around him. i picture him tenderly handling the seeds he planted and smiling with delight as they sprouted up.

why don't i ever think of johnny appleseed anymore?
my 7-year-old imagination was much more vivid and colorful and wonderful, it made my living so fun, and everything was a story to live out. i pictured my life like a book, each page elaboratley illustrated with beautiful words forming my actions. now, i feel like my life is a boring chalk board, that is outdated and a hassle. no matter how hard you try, it just can't always be clean, and it can't always be pretty. you can never make chalk THAT pretty. not like a story book.

i wish i was seven again.


i wanna find you chasing all the dreams you had, when you were just a little girl. i wanna hold you, when this broken world gets scary, cause you're still just a little girl.