"i spit and scream what's done is done"

go make your peace with everyone.

God's economy is abundant says Shane. I am so excited to soon be able to live fully and abundantly off God.
to let my belly grumble with the starving children of the world. to give everything i have away, and yet gain the economy of God. and you can hold me to it, because i will give everything away. why should i have two coats and a homeless dude have none?


i think our world deeply misinterprets some scripture, and it's up to us to go back and interpret it in a way that puts fire in our souls and burns to be released. study the word, not just absorb the words and interpretations that others portray. because the bible is a living, breathing book with more than one way to look at it. i notice that i definitley have a one-way view of the bible and scrupitures in my mind from old sunday school classes and even from recent church sermons. but i read the scripture and come out with something completley different. the mystery of God is that is word is alive. it speaks. and i think our society watered down the Word. we water down what God is really calling us to do-to DIE unto ourselves and to give EVERYTHING away. the words of paul are very literal. they aren't just metaphors, or little suggestions that don't really mean what they say. no, paul was a guy. he was direct and to the point. he doesn't bullshit his way through stuff, he deliberatly says what he means.

and if you look at his life, you know he lived what he meant. and so did Jesus.

i am the biggest culprit of viewing the bible lightly.
the words on the pages are living and breathing and power and Jesus. and they give us instructions. and we brush it off, return to our materialistic worlds and tithe once a month. what the hell is wrong the the church?!

on a totally and ridiculously different note:

"OH GODDESS......
PLEASE, MY DARLING OF ENCUMBERED DELIGHT, SHALLOW WATERS DIVINE, COME FORTH. IN GLORIOUS DESIGN, I WONDER HOW (IN GOD'S MIGHTY RAGE) I FOUND YOU DESTINED HERE FOR (ALL UNMIGHTY GREATNESS) IN A SINGLE MISSHAPPEN....FUCK THIS. I'M SORRY MOM BUT I CANNOT FIGURE OUT WHAT IS RIGHT OR GODLY OR HOLY OR GIGGLY. I'M PSYCHED, BUT STIGMATIC. I FEEL ABSOLUTELY REDICULOUS AND I CANNOT WAIT TO GET BACK ONTO THE ROAD...MAYBE THEN IT WONT FEEL SO STAGNANT. MAYBE THEN I WON'T HAVE TO DESIRE SO MUCH CHANGE. YOU INCREDULOUS MONKEY. "

i really just love this man. with all my heart.